well, raya will be shown up soon, and ofcourse everyone must look fresh and beauty on that day, but for me, the important day is, meeting up puan besar aka mom, i know she just want to see her daughter in a good shape. especially on my face. and yeah thank you to Michelle phan, i saw this video and yeah.. my skin get better. thanks yaw!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXU_ylBSpbw
Saturday, 27 July 2013
Dear Ex
Dear love,
Today, I woke up early. I didn't get enough sleep thinking that heyyy
I'm finally single. For real, for good. I should be happy right? I mean,
this is what I want and thank you for letting me go.
We argue everyday just about anything and everything. And I guess we are
both just tired trying to work things out. Yup, I gave up on us. I just
don't think that I can love you like I used to and we're gonna be happy
like those days.
I think I've made the right decision, for both of us. You're that kind
of man who doesnt open your mind before you open your mouth. You hurt me
with your words. And when you are out of your mind, I'll get bruises.
You even judge about my family and say bad things. So you're a jerk, a
douche. I'm not a good girlfriend either, I was a bit or extra friendly
to a couple of guys. I mean they keep coming and you keep on hurting.
I got sick almost everyday thinking bout us. Stress, headaches and I
feel like wasting my time. I can no longer wait for you to change or to
accept what I can't change. I guess, the cure is to be single.
Dear love,
Today, I woke up with regrets. Although you hurt me soooo baddd. But
deep down I do love you. We've been through a lot. You know me inside
out, very well. I'm your baby but what happened to us?
But I'll just keep walking away cause you gave up on us too.
throwback.
omg omg omg! Finally after waiting for three months!!!! my blog recover already. yeah yeah yeah.. it's all accidentally. fine..as long i have a tempat untuk merapu do i care? since all facebook and twitter being tempat orang judge kita. well manusia tidak lari sifat MENJUDGE, it seems like they are so perfect. I'm a bit blur what i want to write, no, type. lol. since lot of stories i want to say, since lot of tears i want to figure it out. but... one thing i have new direction to make my heart clean again. lol. omg i'm super excited bout it... well.. where i should start?
Here we go, surprise surprise, finally after 3 year's at polythecnic Kota Kinabalu, had fight had laugh and everything i succeed with my convocation. alhamdulillah. work hard pay off. even x dpt AKJ atleast i have my diploma.. well well well, rest at my hometown for 1 month's then i decided i want to go somewhere and it's all start here.. the real life, the real love the real enemies show up. it's all bring me down down down for the 1st year. (this years is the second year i travel far from my family, i miss them but i have to catch up my dream).
start with friends and end with enemies, she brought me stay with her, and we end everything with small matter. maybe there's my mistake too, I'm too young that time to deal with problem, i just need someone to lead me, but once i realize, in a real life no one will lead you, you MUST LEAD YOU own self. that's i learn from my 1st 3 months there. and it's too sad and it's too hurt to remember. and now i and her become stranger, i wish i can have a talk with her again, laugh again, but... i don't know, it seems to be won't happen. when everybody have they own direction. i don't know, but if i have another chance i want to ask apologize from my mistake. remind me how i start my life, it's always make me cry, always make me feel ..., da faq. again why i cry? for what? but sometimes, in a real life we have to back in time, just to remind our self, that history is a lesson. after stay i got a job as sale consultant at xxx company, i won't say that company, but this is the bad ass company, promise for 1.5k salary but just pay me RM300.00 after 3 month's. lol... i'm so excited i got my 1st salary with the amount like that. work hard but zero. sigh. i never tell my family how hard i through this journey, i know they bless my journey, and I'm too ego to say my problem, i just don't want they feel bother on me. i want to learn be independent woman. well, after quit from the xxx company, i go to service line, i never put commitment in my job the 1st 6 months. i just always think, i have my diploma i don't need a lower position... oh fresh graduate so ego. for sure, not only me think that way, lot of fresh graduate will be think the same way.
after in a service line, finally i get offer from litigation company... and offer as 'CONVENCING CLERK'. yeah 1st experience in that line, in law firm, teach me how to deal with suck and fuck people. again... but this company and people around me teach me 'MISNAH THIS IS THE REAL JOB'. stress cry stress cry.. only that i can do.... lol.. seems to funny if i remember... but i learn something from there. enough for 1 year i Quit, and decide to start live at SINGAPORE. this is will be another story... ttyl
xoxo,
Dy.
Here we go, surprise surprise, finally after 3 year's at polythecnic Kota Kinabalu, had fight had laugh and everything i succeed with my convocation. alhamdulillah. work hard pay off. even x dpt AKJ atleast i have my diploma.. well well well, rest at my hometown for 1 month's then i decided i want to go somewhere and it's all start here.. the real life, the real love the real enemies show up. it's all bring me down down down for the 1st year. (this years is the second year i travel far from my family, i miss them but i have to catch up my dream).
start with friends and end with enemies, she brought me stay with her, and we end everything with small matter. maybe there's my mistake too, I'm too young that time to deal with problem, i just need someone to lead me, but once i realize, in a real life no one will lead you, you MUST LEAD YOU own self. that's i learn from my 1st 3 months there. and it's too sad and it's too hurt to remember. and now i and her become stranger, i wish i can have a talk with her again, laugh again, but... i don't know, it seems to be won't happen. when everybody have they own direction. i don't know, but if i have another chance i want to ask apologize from my mistake. remind me how i start my life, it's always make me cry, always make me feel ..., da faq. again why i cry? for what? but sometimes, in a real life we have to back in time, just to remind our self, that history is a lesson. after stay i got a job as sale consultant at xxx company, i won't say that company, but this is the bad ass company, promise for 1.5k salary but just pay me RM300.00 after 3 month's. lol... i'm so excited i got my 1st salary with the amount like that. work hard but zero. sigh. i never tell my family how hard i through this journey, i know they bless my journey, and I'm too ego to say my problem, i just don't want they feel bother on me. i want to learn be independent woman. well, after quit from the xxx company, i go to service line, i never put commitment in my job the 1st 6 months. i just always think, i have my diploma i don't need a lower position... oh fresh graduate so ego. for sure, not only me think that way, lot of fresh graduate will be think the same way.
after in a service line, finally i get offer from litigation company... and offer as 'CONVENCING CLERK'. yeah 1st experience in that line, in law firm, teach me how to deal with suck and fuck people. again... but this company and people around me teach me 'MISNAH THIS IS THE REAL JOB'. stress cry stress cry.. only that i can do.... lol.. seems to funny if i remember... but i learn something from there. enough for 1 year i Quit, and decide to start live at SINGAPORE. this is will be another story... ttyl
xoxo,
Dy.
Tuesday, 1 March 2011
Andai Kau Pergi
Dikau pernah berkata
Akulah segalanya
Tanpaku tak mungkin kau bahagia
Namun di sebaliknya
Setelah ku percaya
Kau bersikap dinginku terpinga
Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku
Dengan sepenuh cinta
Daku tanam di dada
Dengan harapan terbina istana
Apakah di mindamu
Mengapa kau membisu
Hanya katakan kau masih menyinta
Ku tak mengerti
Mengapa kau bersikap sebegitu
Andainya
Kau tahu hatiku
Betapa penuh di dada menyintamu
Sayang
Ku masih tidak mengerti
Ke manakah hilangnya cintamu
Jiwaku resah dan sepi
Andainya kau pergi
Akulah segalanya
Tanpaku tak mungkin kau bahagia
Namun di sebaliknya
Setelah ku percaya
Kau bersikap dinginku terpinga
Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku
Dengan sepenuh cinta
Daku tanam di dada
Dengan harapan terbina istana
Apakah di mindamu
Mengapa kau membisu
Hanya katakan kau masih menyinta
Ku tak mengerti
Mengapa kau bersikap sebegitu
Andainya
Kau tahu hatiku
Betapa penuh di dada menyintamu
Sayang
Ku masih tidak mengerti
Ke manakah hilangnya cintamu
Jiwaku resah dan sepi
Andainya kau pergi
Monday, 28 February 2011
terima kasih pagi yang dingin :(
when you open you eyes, terlalu indah bila org yang kita syg merupakan org pertama yang say hello kepda kita..waa indahnya dunia..tapi mengapa disaat kebahagian itu pasti ada suatu perkara yang menghancurkan ia... you wake up from the sweet dream pas tu dilayan mcm tu... tidak salah la untuk menegur kesilapan..kenapa x pndi mengerti nie...aku bukan sempurna untuk sentiasa betul dimatamu..aku mintaa maaf andai salah tutur kataku... sampai kau sakit hati... aku tidak sengaja... terpulang kepada kau untuk menilai hati aku ...
U J I A N R I N D U K E K U A T A N
huh, what the toughest week... ya Allah dugaan ini kah yang harus aku terima, tidak cukup dugaan jiwa, dugaan mental dugaan fizikal... huh..bukan mengeluh, aku tahu aku tidak patut mengeluh untuk perkara ini... tapi terlalu payah untuk aku menanggungnya..atau diriku yang terlalu MANJA untuk semua ini... padahal aku perlu berfikiran lebih luas... ada lagi yang lebih ssh dari aku... ya Allah...
otak Aku ligat berpusing tanpa ada titik mula dan akhirnya... terlalu banyak yang aku rencanaka..selepas poli nie... terlalu banyak... aku cuma mampu merancang, tapi Allah yang menentukan... restu mereka lebih penting... kadang-kadang terpancul sifat nakal ku untuk pergi sahaja dari negeri di bawah bayu ini, bukan untuk bersuka ria, tapi ingin menimba pengalaman... kenapa masih ada orang berfikiran, yang perempuan tidak boleh pergi terlalu jauh?? salah kah aku untuk berhijrah? berhijrah ke kota kinabalu sudah satu penghijarahan yang besar aku pernah buat dalam hidup aku... dan itu fasa kedua selepas kejayaan yang paling bermakna aku ketika SPM... dan untuk fasa ketiga? insyaAllah aku akan sedaya upaya menggapainya... walaupun kadang-kadang, ada suara sumbang yang menyatakan... aku tidak berguna.. hehe..senyum sahaja aku mendengar ucapan itu... wahai insan yang bergelar teman... jgnlah menilai seseorang dari luar coraknya.... terima kasih atas compliment dirimu keatas ku... cuma aku ingin mengatakan lah... ko tu dah cermin diri ko ka? baik ka? berguna ka? hehe..btw thanks a lot...
rindu... memang rindu sesangat dengan family, home, sandakan... tapi aku ada tugas.. dan rindu tu menjadi titik kedua selepas amanah... ya Allah bagaimana mereka disana? aku rindukan senyuman mereka, dan usikan mereka terhadap ku... ya Allah... peritnya menanggung rindu... rindu pada mak, bapa, abg, dan adik2. aku tahu aku harus tabah... cukupla titis air mata menjadi teman dikala aku merindui mereka... i am sorry my tree... aku jarang call, but u have to remember... cuma kamu yang bertakhta dalam hati nie... miss u a lot... insyAAllah, nnt bertambah la seorang lagi anak lelaki mak :) hehe...
senyumlah kepadaku... kerana senyuman itu merupakan kekuatan kepada ku... ketawalah disampingku, kerana tawamu membangkitkan kesegeran dalam hatiku...
otak Aku ligat berpusing tanpa ada titik mula dan akhirnya... terlalu banyak yang aku rencanaka..selepas poli nie... terlalu banyak... aku cuma mampu merancang, tapi Allah yang menentukan... restu mereka lebih penting... kadang-kadang terpancul sifat nakal ku untuk pergi sahaja dari negeri di bawah bayu ini, bukan untuk bersuka ria, tapi ingin menimba pengalaman... kenapa masih ada orang berfikiran, yang perempuan tidak boleh pergi terlalu jauh?? salah kah aku untuk berhijrah? berhijrah ke kota kinabalu sudah satu penghijarahan yang besar aku pernah buat dalam hidup aku... dan itu fasa kedua selepas kejayaan yang paling bermakna aku ketika SPM... dan untuk fasa ketiga? insyaAllah aku akan sedaya upaya menggapainya... walaupun kadang-kadang, ada suara sumbang yang menyatakan... aku tidak berguna.. hehe..senyum sahaja aku mendengar ucapan itu... wahai insan yang bergelar teman... jgnlah menilai seseorang dari luar coraknya.... terima kasih atas compliment dirimu keatas ku... cuma aku ingin mengatakan lah... ko tu dah cermin diri ko ka? baik ka? berguna ka? hehe..btw thanks a lot...
rindu... memang rindu sesangat dengan family, home, sandakan... tapi aku ada tugas.. dan rindu tu menjadi titik kedua selepas amanah... ya Allah bagaimana mereka disana? aku rindukan senyuman mereka, dan usikan mereka terhadap ku... ya Allah... peritnya menanggung rindu... rindu pada mak, bapa, abg, dan adik2. aku tahu aku harus tabah... cukupla titis air mata menjadi teman dikala aku merindui mereka... i am sorry my tree... aku jarang call, but u have to remember... cuma kamu yang bertakhta dalam hati nie... miss u a lot... insyAAllah, nnt bertambah la seorang lagi anak lelaki mak :) hehe...
senyumlah kepadaku... kerana senyuman itu merupakan kekuatan kepada ku... ketawalah disampingku, kerana tawamu membangkitkan kesegeran dalam hatiku...
Sunday, 27 February 2011
saya minta maaf
kadang-kadang emosi manusia nie tdk menentu, kadang-kadang sayup-sayup, kadang-kadang api membara... same with me lorr.. saya minta maaf kalau ada kekasaran kata-kata... sorry again
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