throwback.

omg omg omg! Finally after waiting for three months!!!! my blog recover already. yeah yeah yeah.. it's all accidentally. fine..as long  i have a tempat untuk merapu do i care? since all facebook and twitter being tempat orang judge kita. well manusia tidak lari sifat MENJUDGE, it seems like they are so perfect. I'm a bit blur what i want to write, no, type. lol. since lot of stories i want to say, since lot of tears i want to figure it out. but... one thing i have new direction to make my heart clean again. lol. omg i'm super excited bout it... well.. where i should start?

Here we go, surprise surprise, finally after 3 year's at polythecnic Kota Kinabalu, had fight had laugh and everything i succeed with my convocation. alhamdulillah. work hard pay off. even x dpt AKJ atleast i have my diploma.. well well well, rest at my hometown for 1 month's then i decided i want to go somewhere and it's all start here.. the real life, the real love the real enemies show up. it's all bring me down down down for the 1st year. (this years is the second year i travel far from my family, i miss them but i have to catch up my dream).

start with friends and end with enemies, she brought me stay with her, and we end everything with small matter. maybe there's my mistake too, I'm too young that time to deal with problem, i just need someone to lead me, but once i realize, in a real life no one will lead you, you MUST LEAD YOU own self. that's i learn from my 1st 3 months there. and it's too sad and it's too hurt to remember. and now i and her become stranger, i wish i can have a talk with her again, laugh again, but... i don't know, it seems to be won't happen. when everybody have they own direction. i don't know, but if i have another chance i want to ask apologize from my mistake. remind me how i start my life, it's always make me cry, always make me feel ..., da faq. again why i cry? for what? but sometimes, in a real life we have to back in time, just to remind our self, that history is a lesson. after stay i got a job as sale consultant at xxx company, i won't say that company, but this is the bad ass company, promise for 1.5k salary but just pay me RM300.00 after 3 month's. lol... i'm so excited i got my 1st salary with the amount like that. work hard but zero. sigh. i never tell my family how hard i through this journey, i know they bless my journey, and I'm too ego to say my problem, i just don't want they feel bother on me. i want to learn be independent woman. well, after quit from the xxx company, i go to service line, i never put commitment in my job the 1st 6 months. i just always think, i have my diploma i don't need a lower position... oh fresh graduate so ego. for sure, not only me think that way, lot of fresh graduate will be think the same way.

after in a service line, finally i get offer from litigation company... and offer as 'CONVENCING CLERK'. yeah 1st experience in that line, in law firm, teach me how to deal with suck and fuck people. again... but this company and people around me teach me 'MISNAH THIS IS THE REAL JOB'. stress cry stress cry.. only that i can do.... lol.. seems to funny if i remember... but i learn something from there. enough for 1 year i Quit, and decide to start live at SINGAPORE. this is will be another story... ttyl

xoxo,

Dy.